It’s when times like this I feel peaceful not talking to anyone or not checking out on anyone.
Ignorance is bliss..
But being invisible feels awful.
I raise my middle finger.
You have no idea how worthless you made me feel…..
Pair with philosopher Judith Butler on how reading and the humanities make us more empathetic and philosopher Roman Krznaric on empathy and social change.
A sense of wanting to be alone..
Drown yourself in your own thoughts.
Debating with yourself.
A moment where you want to do self-reflections. And self-realizations.
Closing out everyone around you. Just so you can talk to yourself inside your brain.
Finding no interest to talk or listen or do any social interaction with anyone besides yourself.
Weird and creepy as it may sound, this is what I am feeling right now.
I have never been good with expressing myself in spoken words.
Heck I still even stutter a lot.
I’m not really good with talking in general.
But writing words to express myself, this is where I can say I am confident with.
Just like now.
I prefer texting or IM-ing than calls.
I have issues with organizing my thoughts when I speak or talk. So I end up a stuttering mess most of the time.
I like writing better than talking.
Where other people do doodles or draw when they’re absent-minded or simply bored, I usually just end up writing about my thoughts with a pen and a piece of scratch paper.
I am socially awkward in person. But it’s a different story when chatting or texting or talking to people online.
So yeah, I end up wanting to be alone most of the time.
I can go on for hours and hours without talking to anyone.
On worst days, I block people out when they talk to me, pretending not to hear them.
I am a loner.
And I don’t give a flying fuck of care about it.
Because I usually find comfort and peace of mind with solitude.